3 little Miracles

3 little Miracles

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Introducing the newest products to Willow House

Adelaide Flatware, 5pc place setting
Riverstone Dinnerware
Salud Goblets set of (4)
Monarch Grand Lantern
Athena Crackle Vase
Lyric Candelabra
 Demibottle Trio

Click on my business information in the left margin for more information.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Rachel: 9 months Old

Precious girl, the past nine months have raced by at a speed that seems to amaze us more and more each day as we see you move and grow faster then we could have imagined possible.  You are now rocking back and forth on your knees trying to figure out how to scoot around the room, for now your solution is to roll around like a little tootsie roll.  Of course you still favor rolling to your left and get upset when you get up against an object and you don't roll back to your right to go back where you want to go.  Since I last posted about you on the blog, you have started eating baby food and drinking juice.

You Weigh: 14 lbs 14 oz.
Length:  26 1/2"
Head:  15 3/4"
(This puts you in the 50% in weight and 75% in length on the DS growth scale.  ON the normal growth scale you are 3% in weight and 25% in length.)
You Wear: size 9-12 month's clothing and a size 3 diaper
(you can still wear some of your 6 months clothes)
Feeding:  6 - 8 oz bottles, Similac for Fussiness and Gas x 4 and you are eating three meals of baby food a day, you generally have one 4 oz bottle of juice each day.  So far we have not found a fruit or vegetable that you don't like, we did try to increase you to stage 3 foods recently, but you didn't care for the extra texture.  Your a very greedy happy eater, it's like feeding a little bird because as soon as we get done with a bite your ready for the next one before we can even fill the spoon.
 We bought a gate for your bedroom door so that we could put you down on the floor to play in your beautiful room without your brothers coming in to take over your toys and playtime.  You love playing on your rug, I think it's the various textures and colors.
In May you took your first big road trip to go an celebrate your grandparents 50th Anniversary.  Besides the happy couple, you were the hit of the party and I had a hard time getting people to lay you down in your pack-n-play so you could nap.  I think your favorite part of the weekend was the pool at the hotel and going to see the polar bear at the zoo.
In just a few more weeks you will get to meet your Daddy's side of the family when we go to New York, it will be a big trip but it will be wonderful to introduce you to that side of your family for the first time.  You will also get a chance to meet Mommy's best friend Erin and I can't wait for her to love on you.

Your growing, changing, and showing more of your personality each day.  Your brothers are so very much in love with you and love playing with your, kissing on your, and holding you whenever they can.  In three more months you will be a year old, which is so unbelievable, and I am no hurry for the next three months to pass!

Willow House Jewelry by Sara Blaine Showcase

I am proud to say that my company is introducing a new jewelry line this fall by Sara Blaine, so now you will have two great opportunities to sell amazing products with Willow House.  Our jewelry line will begin it's launch in October, but here is your sneak peak.
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Saturday, July 9, 2011

ME the Ghost

When I started this blog I wanted a space for me to journal in words and photos what our life was like, I wanted to try and keep it upbeat, but I also wanted to be honest and I knew that would be a delicate balancing act.  If I got followers along the way it was fine with me, but if I didn't that too was OK.   Somewhere in the process of my family growing and this blog growing I also I enjoyed the followers that began to read my page, leaving comments, and encouraged me as a Mom, woman, and fellow Christian.  If you have been reading for long, then you know that the past year was pretty rough for my family and I.

Well, as cute as my life looks from the outside with out three adorable children, post Rachel has been VERY difficult for me and I am having a hard time finding my way back up out of the darkness . . . . . and therefore it is effecting how much I blog and I have become a ghost on my own blog.  I have ideas in my head about things I would like to blog about but I struggle to find the time OR the energy to sit down and actually do it.  This post for instance, I have been wanting to sit down and write about my feelings and where I am mentally for a while now, but every time I find the time I do some "puff" peace instead because in someways I feel like if I put it down then I have to face where I am . . . . . Postpartum Depression and struggling to reach the surface to take a breath.

There . . . . . I typed it! ..................................TRUTH #1
TRUTH #2 ...................................................I had it after Jonathan too

The summer before I got pregnant with Rachel I had finally found ME time, I was focused on my physical improvement and my spiritual well being.  I had started going to the gym three days a week, drinking more water and much less CF diet coke, lowering my calorie intake, and making time to go to the park to read and do my quiet time.  I had found my rhythm of life with two boys and was loosing weight, 21 pounds to be precise and the success and ME time was making me a much happier wife and mother.  So although I deeply wanted to try for one more child, I also was afraid that with the fertility drugs and the pregnancy I would loose all the momentum that I had gained . . . . . and I have.

I know that I am not yet a year post pregnancy, but I am 259 pounds. 


Truth #3 . . . . . . . . I am a HUGE girl and currently weigh 259 pounds and on my 5'3" frame that is not pretty and does not feel good. 

I don't know how to stop what is happening inside of my head or how to get back to the positive place I was prior to getting pregnant with Rachel.  I don't want to be a ghost in my life (obviously I am not because I am way to big to miss), I don't want to miss out on being active with my kids, my friends, and life in general.  I have backed off of everything because I am just moving from one safe place to another to be comfortable.  I want to be healthy for me and for my family, but I am really having a hard time getting back into that place.

Truth #4  . . . . . . . .  I still grieve the healthy baby girl I thought I was going to have on October 21st and find myself sometimes thinking about the girl I hoped Rachel had been.  I am joyful over the bundle I have in my life everyday and the blessings God had brought into my life because of her, but I still grieve the dreams I had for her.

Hopefully this is the beginning of me finding my way to the top of this darkness, but I can tell you from past experience it is usually a very long journey and sometimes takes years and under these circumstances I may need help this time.

Placing myself fully in the Master's hands.